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Dear Friends, I’m sure some of you – at least the ones in the same generation : ) – know the song “Listen to your Heart” from the group Roxette. There is a passage in this lovely song, saying “and there are voices want to be heard, so much to mention but you can’t find the words” – how accurate this expression is linked to the feelings I have since a long time now!
I’m keeping on asking myself the question “Why am I here on this earth, what is my mission?” And there are voices deep inside of me, trying to reach to the surface. I know they are there, but I hardly can hear them, sometimes they are just like a whisper coming from far far away …
Is this depressing? Of course it is! Years are passing by and I still don’t know what I am made for… How can I just BE myself, just DO what I am meant to do?
Even if this state of mind and emotions are dragging me down sometimes, I believe that one is driven to the places one has to be or meet people one has to see. The important thing is to be aware of what is happening with or to you, to see, to feel, to listen – briefly, to open all your senses and waiting for what is next.
Two days before I had an heart opening evening, indeed ! For the first time I joined a “heart opening vinyasa flow” yoga class. These 1.5 hours were based on being ROOTED and feeling the “LIMITS” OF YOUR BODY. During the class I had seconds of awakening – could feel each part of my body, observe my mind flow and even had a quick glance at my soul (really, but this will probably be another post)! Now I hear you saying “ok, but what about this heart opening you mentioned?”…
You know what? I have to admit, I thought the same, but that came later….
After the yoga class I was driving back home in a taxi, when suddenly the driver asked me, if I had heard the song, which was playing on his tape.
“No” I said, “ok than, listen carefully” he responded before he rewinded the song and played it again. I was very touched by its words (especially the part mentioning that the only eternal one is God) and had even tears in my eyes.
And than the dialogue continued like that:
Taxi driver, “You know, I believe that God has given each of us a mission on earth, which we have to fulfill.”
Me [mind flow:] “How does he know that this topic is troubling me for such a long time?”] , [speaking loud: ] “Yes, that’s also my thought. But how to find this mission?”
Taxi driver, “You don’t have to find it, life will bring you there anyway…you will know.”
Me [mind flow:] “Is it really the driver talking to me?”, [speaking loud:] “Thank you, that was exactly what I needed to hear today.”
After he asked me my age, he said “Don’t be afraid, you are already on the right way.”
“Thank you and have a peaceful evening” I said and as soon as I left the car, tears were streaming down my face, strangely I was feeling relieved …
God is talking to all of us, through all of us, we just have to ask and listen. And we should not forget, that the voice we should listen and pay attention to is not always the inner one.